Guys.
I don't think I will pass 12th grade and go to a university or even have a decent life.But then again,was it ever decent,let alone normal?
I keep having bad grades at Math,despite trying my best to study.I often get made fun of by my classmates,which often affects me.I have to study hard and go train at the same time,which i've been telling my dad about but he says not to worry.
Not to worry,he says.But then if I don't study AND if I don't go train because I have to study seriously,he's angry at me.I know he's trying his best to help,but it doesn't feel right.Sometimes,i don't understand him.
Things are getting worse and worse at school.I can't handle the stress as it is.If I fail at one subject(Math),i don't think the others(especially the ones i'm good at)will be significant anymore.
And I barely have any life experience.Yeah.And I keep procrastinating for reasons unknown.
I'm one unlucky son of a bitch.Seriously.
I just want people to talk to.I don't want to stay this way forever.I can't.
