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I've been thinking about getting Borderlands 2 myself, but I guess I'll finish the first game beforehand.

Baldur's Gate 2 and Fallout 2 share the same space with the best RPG I've ever played. KotOR 1 & 2 are very close behind them. Gothic 1 & 2 are the best free world RPGs I ever played. Rome: Total War wins the strategy title, closely followed by Dawn of War and Age of Empires (first one). Caeser III wins in the city building department. As for First Person Shooters, hands down, Half Life series. I'm not that much to FPS, so no other game from this genre, even if I enjoyed it, can be listed here. Freespace 2 is the king of the simulator genre in my books. And I'd have to put American McGee's Alice here somewhere. I really need a good story in a game for it to reach top marks. Strategies are the only exceptions from this rule.

FTL: Faster than light. I lost a few hours... or weeks, I can't really remember.

Actually, I love the crouch jumping so much, I kinda expect it in other games.

Anybody found "The pizza is a lie" easteregg?

Alright... alright. I'm not sure this belongs here... and I'm not proud to post here... but this is called VENT. I think I need that right now. There's no time to play a hero, even if I want to. I would like to keep it short, but it will probably turn into a freakin' essay with no structure, because I write how I think and feel, and that jumps around like a Mexican jumping bean from hell. Never mind, I'm not here to write a school project, I'm here to vent. Or more like, to vomit out my feelings, because I feel like I'm about to burst. So... there's this girl. Yep, it's a relationship post. One of those. How bleeding unoriginal. But first I should clarify something about me. I'm generally not a really nice person. At least to the people that aren't really close to me. And that's pretty much nearly everyone. I'm cynical, I love dark humour and I have no borders in it, I generally don't have much empathy, I laugh at the misfortunes of others and I'm mostly selfish. I can be a great person too, but that that is mostly reserved for people I care about. Now, my big strength and weakness are emotions. Ok, I’m also diagnosed with depressions and slight split personality and other mental disorders I can’t even pronounce, but that is beside the point. The point is I’m really emotional. I get happy, sad, depressed, angry... very easily and it’s always displayed really strongly. I deal with extremities. Being average that is just not for me. But the emotion I feel the most is love. That bloody love. I can’t say I don’t care at all, but I care little about job, money, profession, hobbies, fame, where I’m going in with life in future... all those stuff. My top priority is love. But that of a hopeless romantic. I may be a cynical bastard, but my mind is also filled with sunshine, bunnies and rainbows. Remember that little girl watching the Disney fairy tales and saying she wants the perfect prince and live happily ever after with him? Well, that girl is me. Boy. Whatever. I’m an idealist. I want that unspoiled love. I want my first love to be the last, I want to get old with her and die with her. Yeah, it sounds retarded, wanna puke yet? Wow, I wrote a lot and I didn’t get to the problem yet. Oh boy. So there’s this girl. For me she is the one. I know, I’ll be only 24 in a few days, what do I know about true love? That will probably change a lot in my life. I’m just a youngling. Perhaps. But I know what I want now and what I think I’ll want in the future. This wonderful girl. I met her four years ago and for nearly three years we were in a relationship. Awesome, eh? Go me! I know right? Oh... but the problems were many. For starters, she’s mentally unstable and she has quite a few mental disorders, something similar to me, even though it’s different. Her empathy is completely alien, her understandment of logic is *Spock voice* most illogical and trying to deal with her is nearly impossible. I can deal with girls, but she is completely different to any human being I have ever met in my entire life. It’s really like being with an alien. Oh, and she hates sex. That thing may be a bit important too. We had a lot of problems. Half the time she hated me. We even broke up couple of times. Like... uh... twenty times. Maybe. I didn’t really count. She broke my heart so many times I don’t even bother trying to put it back together. But I did hurt her many times too. Unintentionally, but she had quite a hell with me. We had disputes that made the Cold War look like a minor struggle. So yeah, if anybody is still reading this, I know what you are thinking. This girl is the love of my life?! Well, yeah. I never stopped loving her. Not for a single second. And she never stopped loving me. Even though she claimed many times that she never wants to see me again (that usually happened after the breakup). It was a sick relationship, but the good things were worth it a dozen times over. When it worked, it was like a constant honeymoon... absolutely perfect. And her abnormality is incredibly attractive. And so is she. I never met more beautiful being, but that is to be expected, I guess. No, I don’t think I can explain why I love her so much even though so much bad has happened. It’s just a feeling in your gut. You look at the person and you know you want to spend the rest of the life with them. Damn, I still haven’t gotten to the problem. Alright, here goes. Three months ago I broke up with her. Yep. Everything I stated is true. But I broke up with her. I had a stupid retarded display of mental breakdown and passion. She was in a hospital and when she came back, she said something really bad I couldn’t handle. She didn’t know she said anything bad - her alien empathy... *sighs* Normally... I would be able to get over it, but maybe it had something to do with my grandfather dying a few days ago... or maybe it just was too much... I don’t know. I broke up with her. And I said something stupid. I don’t know what I was smoking, but I told her it’s because she doesn’t want to sleep with me. That really shocked her, because in the beginning I told her I’ll be with her despite this and I meant it. And now I said this bullshit. She didn’t want to talk to me or see me after that. No big surprise. Well, I got out, after some time I cooled my head and was like “Oh Fuck”. When I got over the... thing that made me into a raging monkey, I realized that nothing changed. I still loved her. But I really hurt her. What she got from my message is basically “I don’t love you, I just want somebody to fuck.” She had no idea why I did it, but the damage was done. It took until now to find enough courage to write to her, but yeah, I got what I expected. Even though she kinda talked to me... and we even saw each other, it was pretty bad. She claims she loves me no more, she enjoys being single and that she doesn’t even miss me. Yeah, what could I expect? I guess deserve this. Doesn’t make me enjoy it thought... But I don’t want to lose hope yet. We were in tough spots before, she claimed many times she hates me and that we’ll never be together, but in the end, she never stopped loving me and it had a good ending. But it never took three months. I fear this is damaged being repair. It’s even worse than the other breakups... at least for me... because this is entirely my fault. I can blame nobody than me. They say adult life is full of regrets. This one is mine. I know, it’s no heroine story, or family dying, no discovery of AIDS, no “father beats me”. It’s a breakup. Nearly everybody experiences one... or many. Comparing to the tragedies of the world, it’s nothing. But for me personally, it’s the world falling apart. I feel like part of me dying. Sorry for it being so long. I am unable to write things in a simple manner. But I think I needed this. Good day.

So there was something good in this shitty week afterall...

Now, what will come sooner..? Black Mesa Source or Rome II: Total War...? Nevertheless, I am hyped as ever.

Hundred people have hundred tastes, Alyxx. You can never satisfy everyone. I've heard there are even people who buy and enjoy games as Crane Simulator. Although, yeah, sometimes I believe that MY OPINION IS A FACT.

I didn't read this thread, I came here only to say that I like tentacle porn. It's okay to say it's a bit awkward.

I was mentally bullied, assaulted, condemned and ignored my entire life... and thus I grew into a very paranoid person with little to no self-confidence, which makes my life even harder. I basicly give up everything before I start it and my social skills are next to zero. But since I made my own asylum in my mind with many imaginary characters, I guess it was worth it. Brianna: Hey! What do you mean "imaginary characters"?! Shush Bri, they would not understand...

I'd recommend MGS4 but that's the kind of game you'd really need to play the other games in the series to understand. I was thinking about that already, but that is the thing, I never played a single Metal Gear Solid game. But I guess there are other alternatives.

I was pro-PC my whole life, never owned a console... but suddently I got crazy a bought a PS3. I guess I really wanted to try out that Heavy Rain... and sis is happy about Naruto Ninja Storm.

I'm not sure about you, but I would rather not die young.

Anyhow, the VA is so cheesy I actually like it.

Awwwww... I love ironsights.

I tried my BG II online a few years back, but I never got it to work. So I always solo'd. Now I'm just waiting for the Enhanced Edition.

*grabs some popcorn, fingers crossed*

Hate Star Wars...? Calm down... there is no passion, these is peace... No, seriously, I know that Morrowind is a great game, but I never enjoyed it. Different tastes I guess.

Morrowind instead of Kotor?! I know I should respect the opinions of other people, but damn! Sometimes it's really hard. I agree with the original Fallouts completely though.

I'm a scaredy cat that get's attracted to scary games. Thus I will not sleep for many nights after playing this game.

Ross Scott standing next to Richard Dean Anderson? Wow... that's really bad i wasn't there...

With that lighting effect... Ross looks a bit like Jesus...

Sometimes violence is a good way. Nobody should push anyone around and believe he/she can get away with it.

Yes, BlackThorne, I almost forgot that! That was one great atmospheric game. Now where did I put my dosbox...?!