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Warframe. I haven't played it since closed beta. it's really changed a lot.

Sitting at my computer with the bed sheets pulled off the bed and wrapped around me. It's cold in my room and I should have done this long ago.

"How old" thinks I look almost 40. XD I used 2 different pictures and the results were 37 and 38. I'm only 24.

Career goals: Make a game series so famous EA buys it and fucks it into submission.

Watching an artist stream.

You can and it's very surreal. But yes. I'm going with the glasses one as well.

I love Infected Mushroom and that song is the one I play every time I fight a boss in a game. OT: JDglMK9sgIQ

Bloodborne. I'm slowly trying to engrave it into my mind that to properly dodge a sweep attack, you have to dodge into it not away from it else the weapon still hits you when you leave the invincibility frames. It's just hard to fight the instinct that says "you survive attacks by moving away from them" and not "Quick, he's attacking! Throw your body at his building sized axe!"

Playing Bloodborne. NG+ on the newer character and it's going a lot smoother than last time. Not only is my gear better (very strong suit of armor and a really strong weapon.) but I'm not going derp mode on the bosses like before.

This isn't the first time I've had to use ILLUSIONS.

Hm.. The closest I have to that right now is a rhubarb compote but that's lightly sweetened. My parents can't stand it because they say it's too sour but all I taste is the rhubarb and faint sweetness. Currently drinking chocolate milk but now considering getting some toast with that compote on it.

A lemon. I wanted to test something. I'm calling it, I'm officially immune to sour. Sour candies, lemons, everything I've had in the past years that people say is unbelievably sour hasn't even made the muscles in my mouth slightly tense up. Although I'm sure science has created some super sour concoction that'd probably affect even the most immune or something. If they can engineer murderously hot peppers I'm sure they can do so for a lemon. I think all those sour candies I had back in middle and high school did actual damage.

Or you can use cgtextures.com. It's free and public domain with the sole exception that it must be used on a 3D model. I'm gonna say this with honesty. That model is better than some of the things I saw students trying to graduate with at my college. Do with that information what you will. I kind of want to show my models now but the best of my works aren't textured because that's what I'm weakest at when it comes to 3D. I felt that my attempts to do so made them look worse. Also I kinda feel that removing image signatures from this website wounded my digital art. I used to make signature banners all the time to keep my skills not-blunt and give me something to do when it came time to change it but ever since they took them down it just feels like there hasn't been much point.

The problem with people today is that they'd rather change what the media shows instead of teaching people that they shouldn't base their life around the looks and actions of a fictional character. The moment people start complaining that an artist is setting an unrealistic standard of beauty, they're inadvertently giving that artist power while attacking someone who probably just wanted to draw/make something they liked. I hate that because I was always raised under "beauty is in the eye of the beholder" which is what is and isn't beautiful is based solely on the person observing it. Telling someone that they're wrong about their own perspective of the world they view is selfish and rude. Women in less civilized regions of the planet get raped, beaten, and murdered for doing things that men do every day over there because it's illegal for them to even consider themselves on the same level as a male and yet people would rather complain about some artists representation of a fictional character. It's really quite sickening. I understand that fighting the small battles when they present themselves helps towards fixing a larger problem, but going out of your way to eliminate a video game character in a red dress is in no way gonna help the bigger picture. I really do hate modern days social justice and how it's become all buzz words and hot topics and "whose the most oppressed" member of the month. Or how fighting for equality isn't enough anymore because equality "also supports the problem." No it doesn't. It means putting everyone on the same level by not using race, gender, or sex as grounds for deciding social treatment. "Our turn to be the oppressor" isn't going to fix anything. I could go on for hours how that'll not fix anything. Revenge is not justice.

Just got back from Age of Ultron. Was pretty damn good. Woulda been a better experience if that woman sitting behind us could keep the commentary to herself. Saying "he jus sed blah blah blah" 3 seconds after he said blah blah blah in a crowded theater is all kinds of unnecessary. But that's not the movies fault.

I can't do fried food of any variety. Upsets my stomach for some reason. I always go with grilled. Anywho, currently eating cheese-stuffed jalapenos wrapped in bacon. These things are so good. The cheese neutralizes the hotness so it's just the flavor.

Trying to metabolize caffeine into sleep. It's not working.

Not-so-silently seething at the collective bad idea that ISP data caps are. There should be a law that states if an ISP thinks "Hey this is a good idea" then it's not a good idea and they need to try again. The American business plan "One step forward, Twenty steps backwards."

Well it's different for everyone and I'm not gonna fault you for trying to help. I was more "annoyed" (not really annoyed, more amused) by how I'm talking about my insomnia and they're like "off to bed for me!" Kinda a "but... I wanna sleep too D:" moment. For me it's often my active mind works against me since I can't shut it off no matter how hard I try. Miles a minute with thoughts that often lead to me ending up excited or anxious or a number of other things. Sometimes I can't even lie still even if my mind is at peace. Like I get this slowly growing discomfort and the longer I try to stay still the worse it get's to the point where I have to get up and move. And then even when i can get to sleep I often have trouble staying asleep. I get periods of stress dreams that run on repeat with no sense or logic. Often times I'm trying to solve an issue that keeps resetting itself. The whole time these dreams are going I'm stuck half awake. I'm aware of my surroundings and can freely move my limbs but the dreams keep going and resetting and the only way to stop them is the turn the lights on and just do something until I'm tired enough to try and sleep again. These periods last anywhere from about 3 days to 2 weeks. I'm usually a wreck during those. I'm currently on day 4 of one of these periods which is why I haven't been on the forums much. Too grumpy. :S

I just spent the last hour explaining to 2 people how "just lay down and go to sleep" is NOT legitimate advice for people with insomnia because if it was that simple it wouldn't be insomnia only to have them both pretty much go "Hm. Okay then. Whelp, bed time!" >

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Bloodborne. I finally beat the asshole boss that's been giving me trouble all week. "Doesn't do anything out of the ordinary" - Wiki. What about magic? Magic's pretty out of the ordinary in Bloodborne. Heat seeking blood skulls and blood skull bombs are pretty out of the ordinary. An old Arthas wanna-be lich lord using all these while swinging a scythe faster than the fastest weapon I have is pretty damn out of the ordinary. But alas, no matter how out of the ordinary it is, it wasn't enough that when I finally put on my favorite game combat song even it couldn't survive. Something about The Pretender by Infected Mushroom makes it so I don't lose against bosses. Every time I face a hard boss I throw that song on and suddenly I win.

Viscera Cleanup Detail: Shadow Warrior I was bored and curious and things got out of hand.* *This is my favorite thing I've said all year.

Cool thanks.

Writhing in insomnia. Almost 4 AM and my minds running a mile a minute. :/ I'm tired. I'm very tired. But I can't keep my eyes closed, I can't sit still, and I can't stop my thoughts from taking tangents upon tangents long enough to calm me down.