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[Axeldeath]

So it's all a very productive day for the lot of you.

 

Going to work. Happy days.

[J.C.]

I'm thinking about what to play now...

[Collective Foal]

Just took a little time to write a letter...

 

Dear Dad,

 

I hope you get plenty of satisfaction from being able to tell your fifteen year-old son he’s a lying asshole because he didn’t get the grade he’d expected on his Spanish Midterm. I hope your heart flutters and a smile spreads across your face every time you hear about how he cried himself to sleep every night. I hope your eyes brighten at the thought of him carrying out every day not caring if he lives or dies, passes or fails, laughs or weeps. I hope the sight of his blood strewn across the walls of his room, puddled around his head, trickling from his mouth, makes you giddy like a schoolgirl. And most of all, I hope you laugh at his funeral, spit on his face, and dance on his grave. I want these things for you for two reasons: the first because it would be nice to know my passing lifted a burden from someone’s shoulders, the second because it would prove me right. It would make you an awful, soulless man filled with evil and hate.

 

Love,

Your Son, Zach

[Pinkie Pie]

I'm not sure what to say after that...

[Blightmare]

Just took a little time to write a letter...

 

Dear Dad,

 

I hope you get plenty of satisfaction from being able to tell your fifteen year-old son he’s a lying asshole because he didn’t get the grade he’d expected on his Spanish Midterm. I hope your heart flutters and a smile spreads across your face every time you hear about how he cried himself to sleep every night. I hope your eyes brighten at the thought of him carrying out every day not caring if he lives or dies, passes or fails, laughs or weeps. I hope the sight of his blood strewn across the walls of his room, puddled around his head, trickling from his mouth, makes you giddy like a schoolgirl. And most of all, I hope you laugh at his funeral, spit on his face, and dance on his grave. I want these things for you for two reasons: the first because it would be nice to know my passing lifted a burden from someone’s shoulders, the second because it would prove me right. It would make you an awful, soulless man filled with evil and hate.

 

Love,

Your Son, Zach

 

This... scares me...

[Eedo Baba]

Big pile of money fell into my lap just recently (art contest). Trying to decide how to spend it.

[Mr. ShinyObject]

Big pile of money fell into my lap just recently (art contest). Trying to decide how to spend it.

Why, ponies of course!

[Axeldeath]

Just took a little time to write a letter...

 

Dear Dad,

 

I hope you get plenty of satisfaction from being able to tell your fifteen year-old son he’s a lying asshole because he didn’t get the grade he’d expected on his Spanish Midterm. I hope your heart flutters and a smile spreads across your face every time you hear about how he cried himself to sleep every night. I hope your eyes brighten at the thought of him carrying out every day not caring if he lives or dies, passes or fails, laughs or weeps. I hope the sight of his blood strewn across the walls of his room, puddled around his head, trickling from his mouth, makes you giddy like a schoolgirl. And most of all, I hope you laugh at his funeral, spit on his face, and dance on his grave. I want these things for you for two reasons: the first because it would be nice to know my passing lifted a burden from someone’s shoulders, the second because it would prove me right. It would make you an awful, soulless man filled with evil and hate.

 

Love,

Your Son, Zach

 

Thinking killing yourself will exact some sort of revenge on your father is wishful thinking. Speaking from personal experience of this happening in my family, it leaves deep emotional scars on all of the members of your family. When my cousin killed himself it tore the family apart, my aunt and uncle got divorced and eventually my Aunt killed herself as well.

 

By commiting suicide you aren't hurting your father, you're hurting everyone around you in a deep and permanent way. I don't know anything about your family but I hope that your father is just bad at parenting, rather than being a bad parent. I sympathize with your emotions, I often went to similar places when I was young and in a horrible situation but I got through it with the help of my father. I know that if you're seriously considering killing yourself it is preventable.

 

You think the problems you are facing are overwhelming and you can’t see any other way out. But there is a way out, I went through it. I know how you feel because I went through it as well, the first thing you need to find is someone you trust and ask them for help, if the don't respond adequately just ask them again. You need to sort through your feelings with someone you trust, talking to a shrink that is a total stranger is no help when you are feeling like you are, ask your mother, or your friend, or your sibling. Anyone you can trust.

 

And remember, you are a human being, I know I've had my arguments with you before but I value you. It would hurt me and a lot of other forum members if you ended your life. Reconsider your feelings and try and sort out your family problems, if you want to PM me we could talk about your family problems and how you could try and sort them out. You could also try a depression hotline in your area to make a completely anonymous call to try and get some solutions from there.

 

Your choice, but remember to find some help you can trust.

[Alyxx Thorne]

Not gonna give any big speeches. Just gonna say that if you truly hate your father, if you truly think he's evil, this isn't the way to be better than him.

[Pinkie Pie]

Well, I've never seriously considered killing myself before. I've gotten incredibly pissed off at my family, my dad left roughly three years ago after cheating on my mom (twice) and after months of no contact, he calls me late last year to I guess, rekindle a now irreparable relationship. He tells me we'd do something later in the weekend and that he'd call me. I never heard from him again. I consider my own father to be a shitty parent, but killing myself to get revenge never came up in my mind because I still want to spend time with my family while any of us are still alive. It's a lot of grief but I have to push through it as well. The point being, like Axel said, your actions have serious impact on your family, and if you really care about anyone else more than you hate your father, I'd advise second guessing any thoughts you may have towards suicide. I don't know the whole situation, but may as well put in my two cents as well before mods decide to break up the whole advice giving thing.

[Collective Foal]

I realize I probably scared everybody shitless yesterday. MA BAD! I hit rock bottom for a while and needed some way to vent... I doubt I will ever be pushed that far. I've discovered, however, I am psychologically addicted/dependent to the internet, so I won't be on here for a VERY long time, at least until I can get my priorities straight.

 

Farewell, Friends

*salutes*

[Alyxx Thorne]

I realize I probably scared everybody shitless yesterday. MA BAD! I hit rock bottom for a while and needed some way to vent... I doubt I will ever be pushed that far. I've discovered, however, I am psychologically addicted/dependent to the internet, so I won't be on here for a VERY long time, at least until I can get my priorities straight.

 

Farewell, Friends

*salutes*

*gives a hug* Hope to see you back some day.

[Blightmare]

Later man, hope to see you again soon.

[Pinkie Pie]

Au revior, my good man.

[J.C.]

Fare thee well friend.

 

May the road rise up to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields.

[Kirkreng]

Drinking away the pain of Flutter leaving.

[Koach]

Fare ye well, Zach. Good luck and Godspeed.

[Alyxx Thorne]

I'm watching YouTube and relaxing.

[Pinkie Pie]

Readin Cracked.

[Alyxx Thorne]

Playing MW3.